Lucy had so much fun, even though it was a lot of walking, and lots of kids, she loved it!
Friday, October 29, 2010
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Oh boy, I have to confess to you all. This is the hardest and most trying thing I have ever had to go through with Lucy. But I promised myself i would NOT go back this time. No matter how much pee I have to clean up, no matter how many pairs of soiled underwear I had to wash, I was not going back to diapers. And I know I said I would update yesterday, but lets be honest, I was not in a good mood. hah. She only made it to the potty once yesterday. It seemed that we were ALWAYS in the bathroom reading books, and singing songs. And as soon as she would get off for her 10 minute break, she would go. She went through 15 pairs of underwear in two days! I was not pleased. And its been especially hard because I still have to go to school in the morning, and then Tyler is at work from the time I get home, till after lucy goes to bed. So I have been potty training on my own. But today, I think it has clicked for both of us! She hasn't had ONE accident! I have been giving her lots of water and juice. And when she is done drinking a glass, about 30 minutes later we go have our potty time, and she has gone every time. Its so funny, because when she feels it comin' she says "oh! its just pee mom!" , "there's pee in there!" She is so cute. So now that she has 5 stickers, we are going to go visit Daddy at Costco for a frozen yogurt! YAY LUCY!!!
Monday, October 25, 2010
As most of you know Tyler has been having a hard time finding a job. He has been working his butt off applying to every place he can think of. Well today we were sitting in Costco sharing a $1.50 ice cream bar and Tyler's phone rang. He answered it, and it was a guy sitting at the table next to us, calling him about a Temporary job! So naturally he got off the phone and they did the interview right there. Its only a week long, but at least it is something right? So what will he be doing, you ask? He will be selling Simon Dewey paintings in Costco! I think this is so cool. And I think its God's way of telling us that it will be okay. That he is here and he knows our struggles and no matter what happens, we will be okay. Tyler and I are both HUGE fans of Simon's work, and now Tyler gets to be up close and personal! He's excited and starts training tonight!
For those that are not familiar with his work, here are some of my faves....
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Monday, October 18, 2010
So we just got back from the worst Opthamologist visit ever. Lucy was not having any of it! She cried and screamed, and kicked her little legs. She hated the dialation drops, and she hated having someone shine lights into her eyes. Tyler had to be the one to hold her still, and I just sat back and felt sorry for her. It was so hard! No mother likes to hear her child cry like that.
Well she has a stigmitism and her left eye is crossing over. So in a few months he did say that she will have to undergo surgery to correct it, and wear glasses probably for the rest of her life. The surgery is just an outpatient surgery, and he will be the one performing it. In and out the same day. It will take about a month to get her perscription glasses, and he wants to see her back after a week of wearing them. The GOOD NEWS is that this is in NO WAY related to her arthritis! He said they are completely unrelated and he doesn't see any signs of her disease affecting her eyes yet. So we were happy about that. This is something that is genetic and most likely she inherited from Tyler. Since he had the same kinda thing as a kid. So we will keep you updated when necessary! And be Prepared for an EVEN CUTER Lucy!
Friday, October 15, 2010
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
4 years ago on Oct 5th. Tyler and I went on our first date. We enjoyed the Sehome football game and then his Nana and Papa invited us over for games and ice cream. Probably one of the funnest nights of my life. I had no idea that this man was going to be the love of my life and eternal companion. You were cute as can be that night and you definitely put the charm on. I love you more every day. And I am so lucky to have you as my husband, companion, and best friend for life. Love you Babe!
Sunday, October 3, 2010
WARNING>>> VENTING AHEAD AND IF YOU DONT CARE>>>> DONT READ IT.
Yeah... lately I have been sorta depressed. Its okay though... don't freak out or anything. Its not effecting my daily routines or anything. Anybody who knows me, knows that we have been wanting another baby for a while now (2 years). And back in January, I got pregnant and then miscarried. Well that baby would have been born this week. So the last few weeks have been hard for me. I feel like everyone around me is pregnant or has just recently had a baby. It pains me right now to see mothers and their new bundles of joy. I know it was a blessing for us to not have that baby, but that was MY baby. I don't know why and I don't really understand why God didn't want him or her to come to this earth and be with us. I know I said I was fine with it back in Feb, but I don't think I am now. I never thought it would come back and that I would feel this way. It sorta just hit me when I was holding my friend's new baby boy a couple weeks ago. So I have been a little sad lately. Tyler has been trying to help me get through this. And Lucy is cuter than ever and so loving and helpful.
I guess I just need to remember that it isn't my decision really. Its all God's plan for us. I know a lot of my family thinks that we shouldn't get pregnant because we are not financially stable. But Tyler and I don't agree. We think that if we waited to be financially stable, we would probably never have another child. And We believe that Money should not keep us from having a family. there are FAR more important things in life than money. AND it is not up to ANYONE else to judge or say that they know what is best for Tyler and I.
Although I would never trade the last 3 years with Lucy for anything. If I could go back and change her birth and her complications, I wouldn't. Because that made us who we are as a family. Tyler and I needed that trial in our lives. Lucy brought us so much closer. WE have been through so much, the 3 of us. But I feel like I was robbed in the Mothering process with her. I didn't get to hold her for 2 weeks after she was born. I didn't get to nurse her. I didn't get to experience that real bond with my child. And I would give anything to have that. I am ready. Tyler is ready. So I guess we are just waiting patiently until the Lord sees it fit to bless us with another addition to our family. I don't think I will be able to get over losing a baby or an embryo, or whatever you want to call it. BUT IT WAS MINE. I will never forget that joy I felt when I saw that plus sign. And the joy I felt when Tyler and I shared in the excitement. But i will also never forget the way our families reacted. And you know how you reacted.
I am sorry if you don't agree with me about any of this, and I am sorry if I have brought you down in any way. But this is MY blog and I can and will write whatever I want, I needed to get this out. And if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all.
I know there isn't much I can do about timing and what Heavenly Father has in store. But we will continue living righteously and praying, and loving each other until that day comes. Until then... I think we will get a fish!