20 hours ago
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Our life is pretty much a mess right now. We have decisions to make about everything. It seems that in 3 years of our marriage we have been through one adventure after another. I have always been there to support my husband in every decision he has made, no matter how crazy it may seem to me. But I know he is close with God, and must know better than I do.
Some of you know that we are back in Bellingham, for the summer. Chicago didn't really work out the way we had hoped, and I know some of you are saying "I told ya so" but if you must.... say it when I am not around. Its really hard for us to be going through something like this. Its always hard to humble yourselves and rely on the Lord. Tyler was making the sales, and doing really great, but we just weren't making it financially, and needed to make the very hard decision to come home to family. So we are staying with my parents until we can get back on our feet. Lucy loves this because that means she will always have a friend to play with! Now, 6 adults and 2 toddlers in a 4 bedroom house isn't exactly ideal, but we are so grateful that they made the sacrifice and welcomed us home :)
So Tyler, as I type, is out job hunting. He is looking for ANYTHING at this point, so if anyone knows of anything please let me know! I myself am looking for any part time work. I would really just like to stay here, and I know that if Tyler wasn't so invested in college in Pocatello, he would move back in a heartbeat. But it is hard to transfer everything. He would lose credits and have to switch his major once again. It already feels like he has been in school forever, so I know where he is coming from. We are all just so much happier here. Lucy can see both sets of Grandparents and play with her cousins everyday! plus I could get a part time job and have someone I really trust and know take care of Lucy while I was away.
I just don't know what the answer is, and I don't know what will happen after July is over. But I do know, that I will stand beside my husband in whatever decision he makes. I love him with my whole heart, and in the end it is Him, Lucy , and I. So we will do what is best for us, ALL of us.
That's my story and I'm sticking to it!