What an Idiot

As most of you know, I sprained my neck on Sunday morning. Sounds so stupid I know. But it happened. Went to the Dr and got it checked out. So now I am on medication to keep me relaxed so that the muscles and tendants(sp) in my neck can move back. My pain is caused by a Tendant overlapping the muscles. It is a pain I have never felt before. So I am keeping up on the drugs that she gave me, which make me pretty drowsy and dizzy when i stand up.

I just wanted to thank our friends (Michelle and Steve) who have been so kind as to help out with Lucy, while Tyler has school and work. I am so grateful for your willingness to help. I hate not being able to care for my family, and knowing that there is someone to help in my vulnerable state is comforting. So Thank you guys so much. I love you!

PS: I owe you double now!

No More Bottle!!

Day 4 is going excellent! She sleeps better both at night and during nap time. My little Angel!

What The...

So I am back to square one. And I don't wanna hear anything about it! The Holidays are coming up and I am going home to see family. And I am so FREAKING FAT! I cannot believe how much weight I have gained since Ty and I got married. I am sick about it. I know I always say that I am going to work out and eat better, blah blah blah. Truth is I hate working out, I absolutely hate running, with a passion (sorry Carolyn) ask my High School Gym teacher, Mrs. Jackson. I had every excuse in the book to get out of running the mile. I always seemed to be on my period that week. lol! Anyway... I sit here at 1:15 am just getting pumped about losing weight. I am going to do it MY way. I don't want anyone asking how I am doing, or what i am doing, except Michelle, I put her in charge of the area. I will tell you how this came up... take a look at these pictures. I wasn't extremely skinny, but I was at least 50 lbs below what I am now. YIKES!! What the heck happened!?

I am in a freakin' sweatshirt and I still look skinny! what is up with that?

So I am going to print these out and post them up everywhere in my apartment. This is what I will be again! AHHHH!!!!

Reflecting...

For some reason I have been very reflective today. I have been thinking a lot about my life, and my family. I guess that's because this month, 3 years ago, I met the Love of my Life. I am so grateful for my Tyler. He is a wonderful support to me. He works so hard so that I can stay home with Lucy. I am so lucky to have married a man who strongly believes that a Mother should teach her children at home, and be there full time to raise them. He never tells me I need to get a job, or not be so lazy. He loves me for me, and cares enough about our child, and future children, to work hard enough so that I can stay home with them. He is my Best Friend. I still get butterflies when he walks through the door. He can always put a smile on my face. He is so kind and compassionate. A fantastic Dad. And for that I guess I am thankful to My In-Laws. Carolyn and Eric. You have raised such a great boy, who grew into a wonderful man. He is so strong in his faith, and believes without a doubt how he should be living his life. Because he was taught this, his children shall also be taught this. He is a great example to me and his daughter. I know that no matter what we will always be together. He will always be here for me. When I am sad he is there holding me. When I am happy he there to laugh with me. I know without a doubt that no matter what comes our way we can get through it together. God knows, we have been through more in the last 3 years than most couples do in 20 years of marriage. We made the most precious thing in our lives together. Lucy. She is our Pride and Joy. When I look into her blue eyes, I see the most loving precious spirit. I know that Heavenly Father sent her to us for good reason. We may not know what those are now, but we will someday. She is our miracle. And together, the 3 of us can conquer anything.

you sick, sicky!

Tyler has been pretty sick the last week. Started on sat, came home from work with a fever and a headache. Sunday he stayed home from work, started his sore throat. Monday and Tuesday he had scheduled days off. Feeling a little better so he decided to go back to work on Wed. They sent him home two hours early because he couldn't get through a conversation without coughing and hacking. Yesterday he called in sick again, feeling the worst. Complaining of his ear hurting, I took him to a walk-in clinic. Thank goodness he is insured. Dr says, yep full blown ear infection. the coughing is due to his sinuses draining. Seems that he is getting over that part. So he perscribed two medications. One is Augmenten (antibiotic for ear) and one is extra strength Tylonol with codine, to help him sleep. After waiting at the Wal-Mart Pharmacy for an hour for them to fill them, and listening to him complain about how this was the worst pain EVER, wanting to kill himself. AND then having my daughter scream "NO!!" at me in front of 20 people, and then continuing to throw her rediculous fit, we finally got to go home. Tyler took his meds, and a bath. And I put my two BABIES to bed, and finally got some peace and quiet.

This morning Tyler wakes up looking like this....

Eyes are not looking like they are suppose to. So I get on the phone calling everyone I can imagine hoping that this isn't an allergic reaction to Penicillin. Finally talked to the nurse who saw him yesterday, and she tells me to give him some Benedryl and watch him. Ugh... Tyler feels like such a druggie. And I feel stretched so thin. Being a Mom is hard. I am just praying Lucy bypasses his sickness. I can't handle anymore of the snot, flem, gross tissues, and hand sanitizing. AHHHHH!!!!

My favorite things

Hot Chocolate. Mmmm.... I Love winter because I can warm up with Hot Chocolate.

the first snow.

This may look like Rain... but it is in fact snow. HUGE flakes of snow. It felt like Washington snow. It was coming down fast and heavy.

You see my car? snow. Not sure how I feel about snow in October. Probably not good.

For My Good Friend. Please READ

For those who Know Annelise Woodward, She is back in the Hospital tonight. They are running a bunch of tests. She is asking for prayers and thoughts. They are also drowning in Medical bills and don't know what to do. She is not covered by any insurance at all. If there is anyone who can spare any amount of money to help them out, They would be forever grateful. Thank You! I will keep post an update when I get one. And if you do want to help out please send me a personal message for more info. Thank You so much, and God Bless!

Thanks...

Bonnie Haas

email: blhaas22@hotmail.com